...But i really love the throwback Thursday thing. I always love that glimpse into the past, no matter how far back it was, granted it wasn't in the immediate past. when we meet people, we usually get to see them at one point but it's always interesting to see how they were before you got to know them. it's almost like they're a different person, or you go and realize that something in that picture is part of why they are the way they are now. how amazing is that, to see your friend on the way to becoming the person you know now? i think it's an intimate thing to show someone who you were before. not everyone is proud of that person, or on the opposite end, some people are sad that who they were before got away with them. most people want to just show their good sides to the world, which is fine, but it's definitely something crazy if they share with you something that wasn't all rainbows and sunshine.
i think that's why i rarely share my poetry with anyone. i wrote a few poems in high school that were graphic and dark because that was a place I was in. i don't ever regret that part of my life, but at the same time it doesn't apply to me anymore. i am still capable of that anger, resentment, and sorrow, but i am just not the person who dwells on it. i miss the past, especially the good times, but of course there's nothing i can do but to look back at it fondly and try to hold myself to the high standard that the younger me did. things may not have played out as i dreamed it, but no matter the journey, i've acquired a lifetime of knowledge. there's always so much more to learn. i think the goal is to make as many throwbacks happy, so every time i look back i would be contented with the steps i took to get to where i am.
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